First and foremost I’ve been talking to this awesome girl that I work with. She started a bit after me and we just hit it off perfectly. We’re trying to keep it hidden for a bit. She doesn’t want it to affect work. She’s new and nobody knows her. Everybody at work knows my ex too so that makes things a little weird. But we spent all weekend together. I adore her. She brings out a side to me nobody else has. I get super affectionate and just want to do everything for her. It’s cool.
In jiu jitsu I’ve been slacking a bit these past couple weeks because I’ve been hanging out with the lady but we’re going to slow it down and I’m going to start hitting the gym hard. I have a couple big tournaments coming up so I need to be prepared. I always place at them and need to keep that up. But I’m confident that I’ll do well but I’m just not happy with myself. I have so much work to do and things to clean up. Everybody thinks highly of my game but I think I’ve been playing bottom too much. I need to open up, play top, and get more aggressive. I want to be a beast. I have two more weeks for naga and about 6 before ibjjf. It’s time to work like I never have before.
It helps knowing that the lady is going to go watch me. I will not lose in front of her.